Things happen when you came least expected- sometimes i hope this phrase applies only onto good stuffs.
But it came when i least expected- really never expected it.
I was rushing my way today to Old Klang Road for an appointment. Was running late, but didnt make my go any faster asi’ve gotten some police summons because of speeding over the years, hence i was still on a very safe speed at 70km/h.
On a highway after paying thepainful RM1.50 for that short distance, i overtook a Proton Saga under the drizzle confident enough with 80km/h. I came near toa left corner, so i moved my right feet from the accelerator pedal to the brake pedal, slightly stepping onto it to slower my speed.
It wasnt a dreadful turn- i thought. I’d been on this road for n times and lost count of the sum of money i’ve contributed to the tolls.. The moment i stepped onto the brake pedal, i felt my ass skided. oH My God, was i drifting?
I immediately released whatever i was stepping, and tried a lil more on the brake system.I failed, yes you are right, i made the wrong choice. I felt myself turning, as i saw MidValley ahead but the next 0.01 second i saw those cars which were behind of me were coming towards my way.
I WAS ON THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION! Shit!
and so the car did not stop. It continued with his dreadful turns. My steering was locked. My mind was shut.
All i heard was, numerous cars honking, jam breaking, maybe people saying ohmygod or screaming, i saw the repetition of what i’ve seen earlier, MidValley mall and then the cars again- okays i’m giving up this time. It’s my second turn and my car didnt seem to want to stop!
It finally ended, with i-dont-know-how to have stopped right in the middle of the two lanes, horizontally, blocking everyone. My car engine was shut in that second, i went blank when i was looking at TM building.
I thought i was gone. I seriously thought i’ve left the world without feeling the pain. Then i turned to my left- another car coming my way speeding its way, the driver probably saw me this hopeless lady gasping heavily trying to survive, he honked as loud as possible because he might not be able to stop in time. He was probably thinking he’ll die this time banging onto me, and both our cars will sparkle into some explotion.
I closed my eyes, i felt tears rolling down. I saw my parents, i saw him. I dont know why would i have that sense of ‘given up’, maybe i’ve been too stressed recently. I’ve undergone ‘mentally exhausted mode’ and its time for a shut down. Perhaps i was a coward, i wanted to close my eyes and leave things behind.. all hassles behind.
and start a new life.
I thought i couldnt escape anymore. I last felt the tears.. on my cheek. onto my skin.
He finally stopped in time. I didnt hearany loudbang, i opened my eyes. I’M ALIVE! I’M STILL ALIVE!
thats why i should treasure my life! I wasnt destined to die 5 years ago on the same day when i re-opened my eyes after being unconscious for 2 days which i’ve spent in ICU not knowing what had happened, i shouldnt die right now after 5 years on the same day!
I suddenly woke up, i used a hand signal to apologize to the cars behind, i started my engine again and did the three-point-turn to make my way back to the same highway direction. My heart shrunk, i could feel every organ in me was shrinking. I was trembling, i shivered when i made the call to someone i trusted, but i didn’t cry..
becausea reborn shouldnt involve tears. Unless it is thetears of joy…
I’m alright now, mates. I didnt even bang my car, merely tyres and car alignment which i would need the technicians to check again tomorrow.
Wishing everyone to be safe on the road. Please love yourself, and love the people around you.
-KJ-
