Feeling the bitterness today. Not exactly bitter but just not feeling quite right with the surroundings and happenings.
Being defeated over certain issues that happened recently which seemed to be so contradict with the current reality. I tried not to conform, but obviously, in vain. I tried to convey the ideas, yes My ideas, but werent being accepted.
I dislike the feeling when we are at such bottleneck and there’s no way out. Which the only solution is to make me conform, again.
Was it because i’m new to such? Is there an unwritten rule that I have to obey these rules and thus, be in the game? No.. can I say no?
I also receive a parking summon today - but thats due to my habit of not purchasing the parking ticket according to the time - the reason stated on the summon was ‘ displaying an unvalid ticket’. But who cares? I was trying to conform to such rule that I, as a Malaysian, driving a Malaysia-made car, driving on a Malaysia road, obeying the Malaysia traffic rules, and parking in such compound but still need to pay..
I dont understand.
But i finallyhad to go through the conventional way. Such a terrible conformation. I went to pay the damn RM0.60 at the 9th minute after the summon being issued. And i got mycompound waived.
Just some random ruminations. I feel irritated over what have happened today. I felt disgusted to see what i’ve witnessed this arvo. The umpire for the game is showing its favoritism.. It’s an obstacle to professionalism. I dislike such situation.. But I could do nothing to change..
Some people have such inferiority complex, they can’t accept themselves for who they are.. thus whenever they have a chance to flaunt their left-over values they will be boosting around..
Maybe its just me who cant accept.
Suddenly feel old.
