Went to watch The Orphan two days ago - ok i know it’s pretty late as it’s almost end of the season, but i’m glad i could still find time to walk into a cinema after all these hectic work haunting me day and night! wow sound so scary. Anyways, a good one i would say! Two thumbs up for The Orphan. and that ESTHER [lol]
Only those who have watched will understand what the first paragraph actually means.
It was supposed to be a great day. You know, finding time to hang out with friends and watch a movie though i was distracted by something that had happened.
It’s about.. betrayal. People mis-using my trust. I mean, i know i shouldnt be blogging about this, i dont know who are the random people out there who read my blog. But then again, i’m just trying to express my disatisfaction towards some people’s attitude in taking friendships for granted.
Relationships in general (including friendships! of course) are built on the term - TRUST. you trust someone and hence you are willingly to open up your heart (even if its not entirely) to him/her to talk about anything- at least to the minimum, you are willingly to spend time with each other.
I was just wondering whether i made myself clear about the concern i had earlier- i remembered i said it much earlier and everyone was clear about it. At least they should know - (or maybe i assumed?) Still, when shits happened (of course for a reason!) they claimed they have not known and are innocent.
I dont blame anyone for that. It’s probably my second mistake in work to have taken in ‘that’ crew member. I knew what’s her background, but i thought that was the past. We forgive and forget, i thought that should be the way. She took things for granted, came into my work and tried to interfere, and yes! ended up messing up bits of the situation.
I dont blame her. I just fired her off the work. But then again, never did i expect she has persuaded some others to join in the gang.. i called it a trap!
The sense of being betrayed is so strong that i couldnt even forgive myself. The last time i had such feeling was just 2 months ago during a job in Sunway. Of course, i learnt my lesson. But why do people still like to take advantage on the trust i’m giving in order to build the friendship? Shall i just not trust them and show them the hirearchy system that I’M YOUR BOSS and that’s it?!
I never practiced that. I knew it wouldnt work!
Sigh. Praying there’s no third time of such - i hate to be stuck in between.
Needa get back to work. I’m away from KL these few days and wil only be back on Saturday.
Concentration is a must now in work!
xoxo
