kJ’s paradise~

Things happen when you came least expected- sometimes i hope this phrase applies only onto good stuffs.

But it came when i least expected- really never expected it.

I was rushing my way today to Old Klang Road for an appointment. Was running late, but didnt make my go any faster as�i’ve gotten some police summons because of speeding over the years, hence i was still on a very safe speed at 70km/h.

On a highway after paying the�painful RM1.50 for that short distance, i overtook a Proton Saga under the drizzle confident enough with 80km/h. I came near to�a left corner, so i moved my right feet from the accelerator pedal to the brake pedal, slightly stepping onto it to slower my speed.

It wasnt a dreadful turn- i thought. I’d been on this road for n times and lost count of the sum of money i’ve contributed to the tolls.. The moment i stepped onto the brake pedal, i felt my ass skided. oH My God, was i drifting?

I immediately released whatever i was stepping, and tried a lil more on the brake system.�I failed, yes you are right, i made the wrong choice. I felt myself turning, as i saw MidValley ahead but the next 0.01 second i saw those cars which were behind of me were coming towards my way.

I WAS ON THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION! Shit!

and so the car did not stop. It continued with his dreadful turns. My steering was locked. My mind was shut.

All i heard was, numerous cars honking, jam breaking, maybe people saying ohmygod or screaming, i saw the repetition of what i’ve seen earlier, MidValley mall and then the cars again- okays i’m giving up this time. It’s my second turn and my car didnt seem to want to stop!

It finally ended, with i-dont-know-how to have stopped right in the middle of the two lanes, horizontally, blocking everyone. My car engine was shut in that second, i went blank when i was looking at TM building.

I thought i was gone. I seriously thought i’ve left the world without feeling the pain. Then i turned to my left- another car coming my way speeding its way, the driver probably saw me this hopeless lady gasping heavily trying to survive, he honked as loud as possible because he might not be able to stop in time. He was probably thinking he’ll die this time banging onto me, and both our cars will sparkle into some explotion.

I closed my eyes, i felt tears rolling down. I saw my parents, i saw him. I dont know why would i have that sense of ‘given up’, maybe i’ve been too stressed recently. I’ve undergone ‘mentally exhausted mode’ and its time for a shut down. Perhaps i was a coward, i wanted to close my eyes and leave things behind.. all hassles behind.

and start a new life.

I thought i couldnt escape anymore. I last felt the tears.. on my cheek. onto my skin.

He finally stopped in time. I didnt hear�any loud�bang, i opened my eyes. I’M ALIVE! I’M STILL ALIVE!

thats why i should treasure my life! I wasnt destined to die 5 years ago on the same day when i re-opened my eyes after being unconscious for 2 days which i’ve spent in ICU not knowing what had happened, i shouldnt die right now after 5 years on the same day!

I suddenly woke up, i used a hand signal to apologize to the cars behind, i started my engine again and did the three-point-turn to make my way back to the same highway direction. My heart shrunk, i could feel every organ in me was shrinking. I was trembling, i shivered when i made the call to someone i trusted, but i didn’t cry..

because�a reborn shouldnt involve tears. Unless it is the�tears of joy…

I’m alright now, mates. I didnt even bang my car, merely tyres and car alignment which i would need the technicians to check again tomorrow.

Wishing everyone to be safe on the road. Please love yourself, and love the people around you.

-KJ-

it’s June soon! omg i cannot believe that time flies and now i’m walking my way into the 2nd half of the year. It’s nearing to event industry’s peak season- i’m slowly picking up on what i’m doing and feel good again.

Money motivation. Sorry mates :P� i know i’m just being very realistic. But yes, tell me, will you work for clients if it doesnt generate incomes at all? Lets not talk about charity work here, its something from your heart and how you wanna contribute to the society/ certain community. So it’s not part of ‘work’, i would say its part of your life if you are like what you are doing it now.

4 consequtive days i’ve only slept a total of 14 hours. Maybe that’s quite a lot to you all but its rather torturing for me. I guess since early this year i’ve been waking up late and taking my own sweet time to work according to my pace, i dont need to wakie alarms or so just to remind myself i’m rushing for time. Though i know i wasted quite a lot of time sleeping, but i feel good to enjoy what i’ve been doing.

Anyway, gotten to know a good news! A friend is getting married soon! Congrats to Swan Wui and Alex Well they are both my age, both were from the same primary school as i was but we kinda lost contact after some transition period. It’s good to know friends around me are settling down - oh wait, how old i am? I dont think i’m that old yet but why do people around me keep on reminding me of my age and the urge to get someone who can take care of me?

Hello i can do it myself .. alone :D�� lol i know it’s one good way to console myself. But i thank friends around me who have been so supportive over things that happened around me recently. Thanks for the facebook messages though some were really crappy. But i appreciate you ppl’s effort wanting to cheer me up

I’m certified healthy, cheerful, and happy at this moment of time :)�� Thanks!

Was planning a trip to either Maldives or Bora-bora island. Maldives, i’m sure most of you have heard of it. Bora-bora is located at French Polynesia and it’s a beautiful island for a relaxing honeymoon- ok wait, i mean, it’s also all good for a girl like�me wanting to wake up to the waves and stare into the bluish sea and sky without its borderline. �

I have lotsa friends who share the same interest as i - lying on the beach and start dreaming. Oh yes, i love dreaming. It can go very wild and far- and after waking up to a lovely sweet dream i felt a brand new me. And this time.. yes, i’m planning to go Bora-bora. Anyone out there who is interested to go?

Pay your own expenses obviously! lol

Ok enough of mental ruminations. lol, time to take a short nap before my dinner. Take care ppl!

*i’m just randomly feeling really good!*

-kj-

I got what i’ve never expected today..

and i lost what i’ve never been expecting to lose on the same day.

Such a contradiction.

Sometimes it all happens within the thin fragile line, the moment you make a crucial decision you are destined to certain outcome. You call it faith.

But i dont think it is what we say ‘fate’.

It’s the sweetest moment i shall remember, it’s also the most heart breaking moment i’ve ever attended.

If life is about making choices, will you choose to know, or not to.

If a friendship should include trust, why would i have not been blessed with such element after paying them all off to others.

If what we have been dealing with were merely on the surface, where�were the contents?

Sigh.

If i were to be given the answer is such a way, i rather it wasnt being revealed at the first place.

-kj-

Comedian movie never really caught my attention unless I have no any other choice. You know back in those days when Stephen Chow’s movie were selling hot everywhere and pirated CDs were still detectable around the market. Oh Those days

Anyway, Came across this ‘You Dont Mess with The Zohan’ movie preview the very last time i was in the cinema — cant remember what was I watching then but i remembered i was laughing by just watching the trailer.� My guy friend was asking me Hey why not we watch this when it’s out.

And i went like.. err. no thanks. But okla, can still take into consideration ok ok i know i sound dilemma but since the opportunities arrive right at my doorstep — I supposed I should grab it?

Adverlets is now having a free movie screening for this not-to-be-missed show starring Adamn Sandler as Zohan, who is an Israeli commando who fakes his own death in order to persue his dream as a hairstylist in New York. Well there’s free trailer available online but I’m not planning to watch it — Dont really wanna spoil the mood of hilarous laughing over the cinema just because I’ve known it!

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On the other hand, what motivates me to come for this movie screening is the blog contest!�Ok maybe more of the Zohan Hair contest which will bring 5 winners for the night who come to the screening venue with the most creative/ weird/ horrible hairstyle! Ok i dont supposed I will walk away the horrible hairstyle award, but to those who’ve seen me in real recently — You know how’s my hairstyle!� lol.

Yes. I put some people in shocked. I put some in surprised. And i put most people with fun! and in return, they gave me compliments. haha :D� Though Egyptian doesnt give a good impression (or maybe it does?) but in general I hope mine could walk away the Pensonic Hairdryer — you know it’s a pain for not having one when you are traveling to somewhere else. Especially hotel which provides none!

I can’t possibly take what I have at home — my family members will kill me. Oh well, perhaps my backpacking mates shall take this into serious consideration — bring a hairdryer for me the next time we travel

ok enough of the craps. Let’s just cross my fingers that I’m able to get there for the movie screening and then pray hard to win something home — I promise to spend you people a drink alright? Ok my house. Ice Water!

Cheers.

-kj-