kJ’s paradise~

There are things in life which unevitably to happen without you able to control - it all seems to just come to you rather than you avoiding them.

You know I’m writing this to you. Though i aint 100% sure that you will read this, but at least there’s a chance for me to say I’m sorry.

I understand�things happened and can never be undone - apology doesnt mean one is forgiven. I just wanted to convey my sincere apologies, for hurting both our feelings.

I just want to say, I’m sorry.

Missing you.

but i’m in no position anymore to say so anymore.

Hope you will forgive me when you are feeling better.

-k.j.-

We often meet challenges ahead, forcing you to make choices which you dont want to.

It’s cruel to choose between two - but you know you take neither if you intend to keep both.

So you made a choice, executed it. but regret after some time.

Some were blessed with second chance. Giving them a better opportunity to treasure what they have lost earlier. Some didnt — regret over times, and left a scar in a maimed heart.

My famous quote has always been ‘Never look back, Never regret’. There were times that I had to make the hardest decision ( which i thought it was hardest) - and wonder why havent i treasure what was left for me but in fact, regret over what I’ve left behind.

Last year, at this time. I had to make a choice which i found it tough - but i was being rationale like how i have always been. I thought I would never regret. As time goes by life changes drastically. I met different people at different stages, i forgot over what tripped me down.

But as there were too many hurdles in life which stopped me from moving forward, i started to look back and wondered whether i would be blessed with second chance.

As it slipped through my finger — as I finally realized it’s never the same — as i started to think i was just someone’s barbie doll after all - you own and leave in the end, i knew i had to give up.

Experiences are the ones that caught me off guard. I thought I’ve got enough. I thought what I’ve gained all these while shape me into who I am today - not anyone else.

If I knew it right from the beginning, I wouldnt be so silly wanting to turn back time. If i knew this is the outcome — i wouldnt even want to give it�a try.

Thank you�for being part of my life, whether�you were�a reason, season, or a lifetime.

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Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Have always been on the road lately.

Despite being warned and gently reminded that i should be driving safely, I still encounter times which I couldnt feel the steering and wheels — I’m basically ‘floating’.

I often woke up in sweat realising i was still driving — but my mind has switched to an ‘auto mode’ turning off the mechanism to a hibernate mode. I’m overloaded with work, i know. I just want to clear a lot of things before i go. But i can’t. Time is running out but I’m still here at the same pace.

The more i’m pushing myself to a limit, The harder i feel i could move forward.

I dont know whether i’m making a� right choice. Perhaps i’m used to making wrong choices and still survive. Regret Not. Basically nothing can be done after a decision has been made. You cant turn back time. You cant deny what you’ve done.

It all makes the history of You. and yes, Me.

I hate to be availed. But why am i always the one who’s not in a position to decide? Perhaps I should also rejudge the main reason i’m being positioned as a victim — was it because i’m really weak. Or was it because i THOUGHT i was weak… When i can fight.

Right or wrong. There’s never a benchmark for anyone to measure. The scale is deep down in your heart. If you are happy with it, go along the line and you will be fine. As long as it harms no one, why bothers?

But it hurts– you yourself. Yes, without knowing it you feel the cut and leave�a scar.

Dont come to me crying pitifuly and say you deserve something better - i give no damn.

3 times of trial is enough - i supposed? I guess it’s your revenge. Its now a happily perfect match - why still bother.

You made it clear to me. I guess it’s the best solution. We call it win-win situation. You left your devil and I’m left with no angel.

and so why must i still care?

One day.. if there comes this day which i’m feeling-less and emotionless, Perhaps that’s the right path.

Sadly to say, It shall never arrive. And it shall never come true.

-kj-

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Dear guys,

I need 4 guys for a roadshow job below:

Date: 8th Sept to 4th Oct 2008 ( total 27 days)
Time: 10am to 10pm
Venue: 4 different locations around Klang Valley (one each week)

Job Scope: Giving product sampling in this roadshow.

Requirements: Presentable look, Good body figure.�

Note: Preferably personnel who can give full commitment to this one-month job.

Please send profiles with pictures to kjseow@gmail.com

-kj-
khaijia@iamkj.com

i felt a sense of betrayal. in the air.

you know i couldnt stand that. I hate when people do not go through me if it’s something which is supposed to be ‘concerning me’.

or rather, because of the numbers that you’ve received earlier that doesnt mean that you can go direct to that person.

It’s exactly the same like how i hate clients who try to undercut my girls after the first time working.

Kick me off and contact them directly.

This time, its something personal. Though the involved parties might say It has got nothing to do with me- skj, and since they are ‘friends’ now and why do they still need to go through me, i still felt like i’ve been betrayed.

One was my close friend the other is someone who’s very very cloes to me.

basket.

i’m f*cking pissed. and i guess it’s all back to square — Fine I can take it.

Now�i finally understand why the hell he would contact me and suddenly have things to talk again, even though i’ve tried my best to�find topics to talk to him again he’s always been ignorant. He has now realized what a position i have�in the company and how this will affect his work.�It’s just about the business. It’s just�about how much profit it can bring�us.

Isnt this�technic�exactly the same like what W did to me.�Availing the availability of me in the company to give out own name cards — at the same time getting business in. Once i refuse to help then I’ve been fired.

wtf.�I’m pissed. really pissed off. �

and I’ve just learned another lesson in life.

Do not trust anyone. Even if he/she is the closest to you.

I’ve my decision. and will execute it tomorrow.

Pray for me. Let me succeed.

-kj-

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Dear all,

I need 4 girls to work as usherettes in a dinner event.

Date: 24th Aug 2008 (Sunday)
Time: 6pm- 10pm (Standby and rehearsal at 1pm)
Venue:Dewan Siantan, Kompleks Persidangan Perbadanan Putrajaya�

Note: No transportation is provided. It’s best if you can get your friends to work and share the petrol + toll fee.

Job Scope: Usher VIPs into the hall, lead the guests into the hall before prize giving ceremony.

Attire: Provided. To be dressed in Ching Dynasty Princess look.

Requirements: No special requirements. As long as with Presentable look.

Plese send profiles and pictures to kjseow@gmail.com

Regards,
kj
khaijia@iamkj.com

You know you have to make a choice at some turning points in life.

Once you missed it, or you have made the wrong choice, you shall never get the chance again.

Never able to grab the opportunities brought you some regret, nevertheless, you grew up learning that life is never fair.

A friend told me he’s treating his ex gf super good becuase he wanted to let her know it’s her loss for letting him go. What goes around comes around, she dumped him for another him and yet she has been dumped by him because of another him.

It will never end unless the sense of vengeancy is gone.

But why, why do we choose to ‘revenge’ when we can send the best of luck and wishes to the new couple.

I wonder.

I’ve gone through some bad moments. but i’ve also gotten happy moments. We get the chance and control to choose what stays in the memories, and what not. However, many people choose to remember the sad breaking up moments where it was all tears and cries, screams and arguements. What happened to the good ones? Has it been just deleted from memories? Has it been disappeared from the remembrance and probably being trashed into the recycle bin?

There are some couples who emphasized on the ‘faith’ and ‘fate’ between them. Yeah, if one doesnt meet on the right time, at the right place, and with the right person. Do you think they will have a good ending? Will the relationship last long? Can we look forward to ‘eternity’?

Promises broke. Swear gone. Pledge vanished.�Broken hearts remained.

and two person who were once together, so closed as one, have gone far apart. Own way apart.

Will it come back to us. Again and again. Will the chances be there. Twice and thrice. Will the love remains. forever.

I doubt all the pledges we once had. I doubt all the love we used to have.

I never got to turn back. It was too far away — I’m floating half way. I have to continue my journey alone, with no hesitation to turn back.� I have to .. look forward.

Once you miss the turning back, it might be a long long way before you could do it again. Even if you are back, it shall never be the same.

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i truely appreciate what was given to me earlier, though it has been withdrawn, and to continue treasure what will be installed for me in the near future.

-kj-

Dear girls,

I need 4 girls to be usherettes in an event in KLIA. Details as below.

Date: 28 August 2008 Thursday
Time: 7pm- 11pm (Standby 4pm)
Venue: KLIA Pan Pacific (Transport is provided � please gather at Damansara Perdana- near The Curve)

Job Scope: Usher VIPs to enter the room, Assist in prizes giving ceremony.

Requirements:
Height 165cm and above.
Slim and Pretty.
Be alert of what to do.

Please send in your profiles with pictures to kjseow@gmail.com by Sunday night.

Thanks.

-kj-
www.iamkj.com/blog/events

Dear all,

I need a total of 20 girls to work in a musical party event. Details as below.

Event name: Summer Sensation Merdeka Countdown Musical Party

Date: 30^th August 2008 Saturday

Time: 7pm � 12am

Venue: Sunway Lagoon Surf Beach

Job scope: Usher the VIPs when they enter the venue.

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Note: You can stay back for the party till 3am after work.

Requirements:

Pretty, Slim, Tall, Sociable, Enjoy Music

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Please send in your full profiles with pictures to kjseow@gmail.com

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Regards,

Kj

khaijia@iamkj.com

As part of my business, i do provide temporary part timers for quite a lot of major events, be it big or small company.

Layman term, we call it ‘Agent’.

Yes. Promoter girls hate agents who cut the money. But we have the contact and network. We got jobs and assign to the temps. We deal with demanding clients and protest the temps whenever they have done anything wrong.

Clients love & hate the agent at the same time. They dont have the databases, contacts or any access to the beautiful models/ hardworking promoters out there, but at the same time they want them to work without needing to pay the�agent.

So Agent has always been the one who’s been blamed, saying that we do nothing but just ’sit down to receive money’.

Recently i was dealing with a company to give them a few temps for a roadshow. The unprofessionalism ethic in this professional company has brought such a disgrace to them. There’s supposed to be an unsaid/untold rules and regulations between agent and client that, no payment issue should arise between the temps and client as this is dealt by the agent.

Not only that they went to ask my temps the payment, they have constantly calling to disturb me about ‘where did the money go to’. I wasn’t the one who charge them in the invoice for the agreed-payment, in fact, they were the one who gave me the budget to look for temps.

They questioned me about my payment, they interfered into my work with my temps, they indirectly threatened to engage my temps to work under them.

Furthermore, they fired me as an agent for the upcoming show which I’ve actually gotten people and assigned temps to work under them.

In other words, they under-cut me and planning to engage the temps directly.

They want the agent to pay full amount to the temps, but unwillingly to pay management fee to the agent at the same time!�

I dont remember stating i do charity for all my work.

I understand temps’ concern is to earn some money. I understand client doesnt like agent to under-cut the money. But without us, where can you get the database? who can you contact to manage the temps? How do you get them to come to your office for briefing?

Do you think you can get them so easily, organised the temps without hassles?

What do you think we people do in order to get the right person for the right job? When we work under pressure within the 24 hours notice given by you, do you think it’s all free?

I’m annoyed. I seriously am. I can actually ignore and not to even bother to go over to explain. As i dont see a long term and positive relationship between me and this client, i’m seriously thinking to terminate the service for this week if i still dont get the P.O (Purchase Order) by tomorrow. I will assign other jobs for the temps to reimburse them for the job which was assigned this week.

To my client who loves reading this blog, thanks for visiting. Please do not use this blog post as a way to do personal attack.

To the girls who still wanna work with me, I thank you for your patience and looking forward to a long-term relationship in this freelance world.

To the friends (boys and girls) who have worked under me, I’m sorry if we have had any misunderstanding. I appreciate those who still call me back and enjoy the work. I seriously take all of you as my friends and not just employer-employee relationship. If you were once under me, i’m 99% sure you are satisfied with the job and the way we work.

God Bless.

With love,

kj